As you may have seen by now, British Cycling have announced their team for the Rio Olympics and I have not made the selection.
More accurately, I have been named as first reserve for the team pursuit squad which means I will be training with the team all the way through to the Olympic holding camp in Newport but when the team jets off to Brazil, I won’t be going with them.
My reaction is quite hard to put into words other than to say two things:
One, I’m obviously devastated that four years hard work has ended like this and two, it goes without saying that I will be cheering on the lads all the way to what I sincerely hope will be a gold medal in Rio in August.
The disappointment strikes me doubly hard because at London 2012, I was man five also and did not get a ride as the lads won gold in such thrilling fashion.
Now, I’m going through the same disappointment again although the consolation I have is that I honestly do not believe I could have done any more, or done anything differently, to win selection.
If I knew I had not given it my best shot, if I had been lazy at times or taken bad decisions, then now I would be kicking myself about missing out.
As it is, I’m lucky - and unlucky - at the same time to be riding on one of the greatest team pursuit squads in the history of the sport.
The team pursuit is a strange event. Obviously, it is the ultimate in team work and the bonds you form with your team mates are incredibly strong.
But, at the same time, everyone wants personal success, as well as team success, and so you find yourself in intense competition against the same guys you are going to go into the trenches with come competition time.
I know there has been a lot of controversy swirling around British Cycling this year but I’m not going to add to it!
I’m not going to kick and scream and complain about the injustice. I’m just going to keep working hard until Rio, in case I’m needed, and I’m going to wish Brad, Ed, Steve and Owain every bit of good luck going, to make sure they beat the Aussies, Kiwis and everyone else in Rio and bring home the gold.
I’m also not going to throw my toys out of the pram and quit track racing even if this is two massive kicks to the gut in successive Olympics.
I think track racing is something I’m pretty good at - I won two medals at a World Championships three months ago, after all - and it’s something I enjoy.
So, yes, I need to take stock after the dust has settled and decide what I want to do with my cycling career over the next four years but there will be no knee jerk reaction from me after not being selected.
My failure to win selection has caused me a lot of disappointment but I think I can hold my head up high and say, genuinely, that I gave it my best shot.
And like every other cycling fan in Britain, I’ll be cheering the lads - and lasses - on to success in Rio.